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THE WAITING ROOM
Unfortunately
I’ve been waiting for so long I’ve for-
gotten why I’m here, who I’m waiting for.
Hopefully not
the dentist
or urologist. After those technicians have finished with me
I can’t look at a pair of rubber gloves
without
a shiver starting
in the brain then tripping down my spine. I’m in one of those
situations that remind me for the
ten-thousandth time that life is
an
antechamber in which, all alone, we are waiting, and in the end
not much happens. Inside our heads, however,
the
carnival is on, baby, our options are manifold, myriad, multiple sex partners
lined up around the block, strangers seeking
our autographs,
WE ARE NOT
ALONE.
T.S. Eliot
was an anti-Semitic monarchist. Let’s be clear about that. He was
a snob’s snob. Born in St. Louis, Missouri, later
in life
he
consorted with Bloomsbury and wore a bowler hat. He was not a nice man. Still,
he
was right on the dot when he wrote, “Most
people can only
bear so
much reality.” You can’t know such things and stay a nice man.
On more or less the same, highly interesting
end of the
human spectrum (I know…elitist…but…) James Joyce and
Samuel Beckett (who reportedly was a very nice
man) knew that
human
beings are pretty much on their own, but this was an idea
they liked, not only because it validated
their pessimism,
but because
it gave them time to carve out of the English language some awesomely
awesome prose, i.e., why bother socializing
when you can write like that?
Sitting in
a Paris kitchen, not a word spoken for the longest time, drinking tea or
something stronger,
or something strong in tea,
the air
reeking of burnt toast and boot black, and maybe one
or both is smoking, who knows,
ears turned
to those inner voices, an occupational hazard
as we all know, and which makes putatively “normal”
people
believe
that writers are dreamy losers, oblivious to the
world around them, when in fact they notice
everything,
which is
why they’re tired all the time, until finally one of them, as always, says,
“Life is awful, isn’t it?”
Two minute
Irish smiles.
And the
other is right on cue with, “Bloody awful, a fooking waste.
Why even bother?” To live for the slim
chance
that beauty
might emerge. That’s worth repeating. To live for the slim chance
that beauty might emerge. A pure and perfect
tenor voice could move
James Joyce
to tears, and a beautiful woman or girl, even if walking down the opposite
sidewalk, could send Samuel Beckett reeling
into an hour of purest rapture.
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