I'll pick myself up and get back in the race

Warmer Sommerwind on Mallorca - Warm Summer Breeze on Mallorca 39 x 39 cm

THE WAITING ROOM

Unfortunately I’ve been waiting for so long I’ve for-

   gotten why I’m here, who I’m waiting for. Hopefully not

the dentist or urologist. After those technicians have finished with me

   I can’t look at a pair of rubber gloves without

a shiver starting in the brain then tripping down my spine. I’m in one of those

  

   situations that remind me for the

  

   ten-thousandth time that life is

an antechamber in which, all alone, we are waiting, and in the end

   not much happens. Inside our heads, however,

the carnival is on, baby, our options are manifold, myriad, multiple sex partners

   lined up around the block, strangers seeking our autographs,

WE ARE NOT ALONE. 

T.S. Eliot was an anti-Semitic monarchist. Let’s be clear about that. He was

   a snob’s snob. Born in St. Louis, Missouri, later in life

he consorted with Bloomsbury and wore a bowler hat. He was not a nice man. Still, he

   was right on the dot when he wrote, “Most people can only

bear so much reality.” You can’t know such things and stay a nice man.

   On more or less the same, highly interesting

end of the human spectrum (I know…elitist…but…) James Joyce and

   Samuel Beckett (who reportedly was a very nice man) knew that

human beings are pretty much on their own, but this was an idea

   they liked, not only because it validated their pessimism,  

but because it gave them time to carve out of the English language some awesomely

   awesome prose, i.e., why bother socializing when you can write like that?  

Sitting in a Paris kitchen, not a word spoken for the longest time, drinking tea or

   something stronger,

   or something strong in tea,

the air reeking of burnt toast and boot black, and maybe one

   or both is smoking, who knows,

ears turned to those inner voices, an occupational hazard

   as we all know, and which makes putatively “normal” people

believe that writers are dreamy losers, oblivious to the

  

   world around them, when in fact they notice everything,

which is why they’re tired all the time, until finally one of them, as always, says,

   “Life is awful, isn’t it?”

                                           Two minute Irish smiles.

And the other is right on cue with, “Bloody awful, a fooking waste.

  

   Why even bother?” To live for the slim chance

that beauty might emerge. That’s worth repeating. To live for the slim chance  

   that beauty might emerge. A pure and perfect tenor voice could move

James Joyce to tears, and a beautiful woman or girl, even if walking down the opposite

   sidewalk, could send Samuel Beckett reeling into an hour of purest rapture.  

Frank Sinatra - That's life